endmylifenow

i always know the day will come but never expect this fast.
you melted my heart. you started my everything.
and your message ruined my life. totally!
as i received it last night, straight away i disconnected from my pc.
im just trying to escape.
i wish i could delete it as if i dont appreciate it but a loser like me treat it as rare and priceless.
i cant do what i've promised to myself one month ago. im totally a loser.

i feel like all my clothes have been take off and i can't hide anything.
i really hope that there's something i can use to hide myself but nothing is there.
168 visitors and 8 in common with you and me. nothing i can do with them but let them see it with their despise and deride eyes.
i will be live without respect; without sincere; without dignity; ....?
a little bit exaggerate but that seriously effect my life.
maybe not much but it exist.

not thinking what to reply you. not thinking what to do with the message. because my brain is going to brust.
i wanted to cry but there's no reasons for me to cry.
cry because of a short simply message?
naaa,i always want me to be optimist. i always want me to be strong.
there's no way i will cry even i'm suffering. i have to learn.
i have to grow up. i have to let the past pass.


but you're the one that i cant let go..