fkn tired

It was shit. Fully ruined my mood. I can't even smile now. So tired and exhausted.

3 weeks of helping dad work. 21 days of washing bowls and plates. I'm more like maid now. My both hands are so sore and my backbone is fkn pain yet tomorrow i still need to work. Serving the customers really killing me especially when lunch time. I've to run here run there and get my whole body smelly like a shit. Afterward wash plates. Then go to up stair sweep floor, fold clothes, help my dog bath and blablabla. Yeah i know everyone is doing these too but it's really really too tiring.

Every single night, surely i'll awake from the whatever dream for once or twice. I don't know why. It's already the 4th day. Perhaps i'm too tired. And this make me more tired the other day. It's even worst if i have coaching tomorrow. Not paying any attention or stuff then get complaint. Haih.

After 3 months of coaching, i guess i really not suit for this kind of job. Coaching is a tiring job. I still can't get what they want, what they don't want. I tried my very best to follow their ways of coaching but sometimes when i forgot, definitely I'll get caught and yeah another training day. I don't have a good temper. I might get piss off after 3 times of teaching if you still don't understand. that's why i tried my very best to be good to the students. In the end they said i was too soft. Yeah true shit. The students are not afraid of me at all. I'm like more a friend to them than a teacher. So what? promise they listen to me, it doesn't matter whether i'm a teacher or a friend to them, right?

See, this is how my life is. I can't imagine how it will be when i start my course next month. Totally exhausted. I'm serious.