how come?

Seriously i don't know all the things you have done all these times. I start to admit that i am blur and slow response. I don't know my single action will causes so much affects. I really don't know anything until i was told today. I feel that i am like an idiot. Yes, my thoughts are wrong all these time. I don't understand why i don't see all the efforts you did. I don't understand why i am so fkn blur. I don't understand why and i am lost at this moment.