human is always unpredictable. they can turn their face as if they are flipping the book. so fast, so ugly. as if you have no brain and you spoke out all the things with a lot of knifes stabbing into me. words with knife, thats what you good in. you feel satisfied. you feel proud. target achieve, mission accomplished. and at the same time there is something you losing as well, regardless you bother about it or not.