New theory learned

When i started to concern about those tiny minor stuffs, i know i am finish. It's not the starting of bliss but disaster i would like to call it. I might not know what happen around and i dont bother about it also but i do know what happened on me. When you started to bother, you are loser. The more you care, the more you lose. Yes i am a loser now. A loser who doesn't want to lose but nobody cares.

Sometimes i wish that everyone can read me. Sometimes i wish that i can have my personal space that i can hide the little of myself with me and nobody knows. Sometimes i wish that nobody cares me. I know i always hesitant. I know whats my weakness and i don't mind to let you see as well. But when you see my weakness, would you choose to protect me over it? Or you try to make me stronger and change my weakness? Or you would just leave me alone and see what i am going to do?

I don't want to be a bitch who speaks out everything about themselves and what happening around. I don't have the responsibility to explain or tell everyone what happened on me. If you care me, you would observe correctly and understand. Please bear in mind, i said observe correctly and understand. Not go simply assume things and create misunderstood. If you able to understand, i don't want to be naked anymore. I am wearing back my lovely clothes and showing my best in front of everyone now.

I am sorry i can't be the old me anymore. I need to grow up. I am forced to. I see the reality of the social. The cruel side and the dark evil side. The backstabbers are the person you forever meet. You able to back stab me because you gain my trust and sorry that you lose it now. I got no one to trust but myself. My feelings, my emotional, my responsibility. No one should care how you feel and give you their hands. It's time to be independent. Humans are alone.