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Happy Chinese New Year! So its the first day of chinese new year. Thought everything will be a good beginning and starting but not. I hate new year. Dad is sick again. All my prays during the whole year didn't work. All i want is just everyone healthy but it seem like impossible. The cny wishes made me felt sarcasm. The ringtone was annoying. Switched off my phone and sat beside my dad. When i looked at my dad's haggard face and blaming himself for ruining all the fun, my tears almost burst out. But i hold it. I have to and i must. Just no to let the environment full with sorrow and sadness. Act like an idiot keep talking bullshit just to make everyone laugh. Looked at him suffering from the pain, i were crying inside. I'm worry, i'm afraid. I can't stand any stimula and thriller anymore. But i can't show it out. There are a lot of loves and cares i wanted to tell my dad but for all those words just stick in my throat. Please bless my dad.

- on the other hand, my cousin has born a daughter today. around 8am+.. congrate. You have born with lots of bless and love. Will meet you someday. Thanks for all the message wishes. 5807 520 530.